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Am I Too White?Is There Something Wrong With My Whiteness?

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I have had the odd experience of being misunderstood,or else being critiqued over, my natural skin color.  (But not the usual racism i have endured from Black people since my early childhood,living and going to public schools in the "inner city".) For the 3rd time , i have gotten comments that confused me,pertaining to the color of my skin,along with questions.....from other Caucasian people!!!!! No I do not powder my skin with silica. No this is not "whiteface". (Although I DO own Ben Nye Cream Makeup in white, that I have used in Goth clubs and for my zebra stripe makeup. ) And sometimes i need to add white to my foundation if it is not pale enough to match my complexion. In this day and age, must I explain my cultural heritage in hopes people understand? For the record: I am mostly of English heritage, with some Irish, Scottish, German and Swedish thrown in. Years ago  I was teased about my pale skin,but not the "typical racism" that mi...

The Bully at the 99 Cent Store

The other day I had an occasion to run up to one of the dollar stores.I had part of a gift card to use up. When I arrived there,I knew the people working there.I noticed a tall older man standing near the cashier, talking to them.I did not think anything of it.I assumed the man must have been a friend of theirs.So I went deep in the store to shop. But a few minutes in my excursion I noted that tall man never left where he was.His voice was loud and he sounded like he was bothering them. I inched closer.I could see the lady cashier was quiet,not smiling. (and she ALWAYS smiles.) The little man who stocks shelves there is from Bangladesh, as is the cashier lady.Both are very very sweet people. That tall man looked like the dirtbags in my neighborhood who cause trouble.. He WAS a ghettizen! Turns out he was smacking the little stock clerk man upside his head with bags of candy.The little man said nothing until finally i heard him cry out "STOP TOUCHING ME!" Now I...

Being a YouTuber Can Be Dangerous!

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I had a scary experience when I made one of my YouTube videos last week. It was a lovely warm sunny Spring day,a perfect beach day.I was stoked because i had a nice Visa gift card to spend, and the luck 2 days previously, to find a deep discount sale when I was purchasing a big bag of fresh roasted peanuts from Peanut World. So with this knowledge in mind I went on the Boardwalk in Atlantic City with my laundry cart on wheels that I bring grocery shopping.Peanut World has a lot of fitness gear...things i have been wanting...... So I got a great punching bag and I got a jump rope, and bigger longer Pilates resistance bands for weight work....I got a medicine ball....i also got an abdominal roller...and a shower radio that's supposed to get TV audio but i don;t expect THAT to work here as I live at sea level and we require cable or satellite for TV reception. I took my overflowing cart on to the beach,which was mostly deserted except for a few scattered walkers/sunbathers. ...

Easy Lavender Eye Shadow Makeup Tutorial ft Color Magic Warm Palette

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 Welcome to what is not only a blog post but a makeup tutorial. After 3 non makeup videos,(to make the fellas and non makeup wearers happy), I just HAD to show off a new palette I bought.They were both too much of a bargain to say no to,and each one has 10 shadows in it that can make at the VERY least, 2 looks apiece. The white or whitish highlight shades were worth the price-it includes a true matte white plus an ecru and a pale pale pale pale pale blue and a golden maize type very pale shade,that,come to think of it may not be light enough as a highlighter,but on a darker skinned person I think it could. This video took longer than it had to because I told some stories about how I feel about some subjects in the news. Once again TabbyBoy interrupted.He had to be fed. He still acts unpredictable since the death of Ace. If you watched this  (or even if you did NOT!)...stay tuned for Thursday.....I will post a funny video involving (mostly) clublife, and some of my pe...

Trash Day Means I Get Rewarded When I Recycle

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There is nothing quite like trash day.Especially trash day in the ghetto. I believe in recycling,but sadly most people in my town do not bother dispite it being a service provided for us and there are special recycling buckets anybody can get from the collection agency. In the wee hours of the late night slash morning, i will often go retrieving recyclables from the top, cleaner part of the trash bins, to put in recycling buckets.It makes me feel good knowing i'm taking them out of landfills and especially, taking plastic away fromwhere it might very well end up incinerated,polluting our air .. I got rewarded twice this week for being a scavenger. First off, a few days ago I was coming home from a club and i saw a cardboard box full of classic rock CDs. (Okay there was a few hiphop ones but i kept them there.I'm not interested in that.It wasn't something old school and innocuous like Grand Master flash, it was the nasty stuff  who who knows.) I took home CDs by Ne...

Ace the Cat's Final Video.

This is the video I never wanted to make.But it tells the truth,. Ace the cat was dying here.In less than an hour after I filmed him, one of my roommates made a call and he got someone he knows with connections to an animal hospital, and they took him and Ace to the vet to run a bunch of diagnostics. I had a little bit of cash I  was more than willing to spend to save Ace.As it is that money would not have been enough to run all the tests.I am grateful that friend (nobody I know) paid to have the tests done. Ace is gone.Aside from what I said in this video, i don't really have anything more to say about the situation. It was out of my hands. Video for Ace the Cat is Dead

I Wanna Work Smart not Work Hard (With Little ROI) (YouTuber Rant)

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Where do I even start? Its a Saturday night.I "should" be out finding a dancefloor with my name on it (although the LAST thing i want invading my eardrums is hip hop.i REALLY Truly do NOT relate to it,its not my culture and while there are a few catchy rap tunes I am actively avoiding as much exposure to current pop and hiphop music because it can cause earworms,interfering with the music that is in my head that i'm slowly but surely eeking out onto paper via songwriting. I cannot be out dancing because i did not get around to uploading today's scheduled YouTube video. And why, you must be asking, did I get such a late start when I had the video ready waiting,and the thumbnail  (cover photo) was chosen days in advance? I was working out the SEO (search engine optimization) for the video title, and i needed some clarifications on my process. Without getting too complicated and confusing my readers,wha I did was I had about 6 versions of a title, and i turned ...