Going to a Concert Tonight.Joe Perry & Friends.But I Miss My Dead Cat!

Life goes on.Tonight in a few hours I will go to The Borgata in Frantic City to see Joe Perry.

I WAS going to tease up my hair real big for this.My heart isn't in it.THAT tangles up my hair for at least a coupla weeks,and I always do lots of photo shoots and film my Youtube videos when it is big.But i don;t think I will make a new video tonight when I get back.

I have one more beauty video "in the can",to post Saturday...then after that is the brief video I shot with my dying Ace The Cat.

That particular video does not follow my standard format.There was no twirl around to show my clothes.no clapboard in my face.Just holding my cat and telling what is up.

I don;t think it is even 2 minutes.

After i post that video I don;t know WHAT my content will be on my channel..

I cannot just pretend everything is okay.Everything is NOT okay.

It is odd.Last time I had a cat die on me he was the only cat in my home.

NOW the situation is the cat who died was technically my brother's cat BUT the brother happens to be one of my roommates AND both cats are considered "family cats", loved by everyone who lives here.STILL I considered both cats to be mine,I have much more time to spend at home with cats than he does.

Roommate is going out to a 420 party.

I WOULD celebrate 420.I don;t have any.

If I did not have this concert ticket,I would not be going out.

I may not go out tomorrow night.

I'm not wearing black tonight BUT I will tomorrow and the next day and the next.

One thing.I will not shove down my emotions,not like I did when my father died.Creative people NEED our emotions.I have years of poetry to set to music plus lots of current songs i am working on and the LAST thing I need is writer's block.

I need to feel all my misery.Really wallow in it.

My songs are not hearts and flowers subjects anyway.

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